A friend of mine linked me up with his friend and the relationship looked so perfect. Considering his age, we were already talking about settling down because he is comfortable already and so am I. Right now, I ruined the sweet relationship because I talk too much. I told him to get me something to spice things up, and he acted cool about it. As we kept talking, one thing led to another and I told him I smoke once in a while anytime I feel down, because it has always been me and my sisters since I lost my mum. Sometimes I get tired of being strong for everyone when I literally have no one to cry to myself, so sometimes when I am in that bad mood, I smoke to calm things. I am not justifying my actions, but I am so pained because I am not an addict. In my whole lifetime, I have not smoked more than five times. This is something I could have kept to myself, but I was vulnerable and wanted to be honest with him.
After a few weeks, I got a text from him that we cannot work because I am too wild for him. Trust me, I cried, I begged, and even spoke to his family, but everyone ignored me. Now I really do not know how to move on since August. I am a very beautiful lady and I attract a lot of men, but it is so hard to move on from this guy. I have been begging, and it looks like I do not have self-worth. I do not care, I just want him back. Nothing justifies my actions, but guilt keeps creeping in because I feel this is something I could have hidden from him, not like I am addicted to any of these things. I found myself blocked everywhere from August till now, and trust me, I still beg till now with different numbers. It seems he has moved on already. I used to be a girl that lets go of men quickly, but with this one, it feels like I have low self-esteem.
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