I have a best friend, we’ve been friends for years, although she left for school one time like that, and at some point we weren’t communicating well, and most times I’m the one who is always trying to make it work. So since she came back, we’ve been trying to spend time together, sometimes I sleep over. So I’ve been noticing that any little thing, she gets angry or moody, like I’m disturbing her. Sometimes I don’t even know how to talk to her because I’m being careful not to be on her bad side, and that makes me feel like I’m with someone I’m not even comfortable with and can’t open up to or joke with freely and not feel like she might shun me or keep a funny face or give me attitude. Sometimes when I’m trying to give her a gist or just lighten the mood, she would just cut me off with whatever she has to say to me, and I would always listen because she’s someone I love as a friend and respect. Whenever we go out, I’ve noticed I’ll post, but she’ll only post herself and not me, but when she’s out with her friends or another friend, she’ll definitely post whoever it is, but I just ignore.
I just feel bad because this is someone I felt safe with and used to be my go-to person, she became so harsh towards me and always giving attitude. I even go as far as taking her out intentionally, even with the little I have, just to make her happy as my friend, and she was there for me when my mum was alive and many others, and I did same too, but I don’t know what changed. I know people go through things and sometimes they just want to be, but trust me when I say this is not looking like that, it’s looking like I’m not on her level of friends she would like to hang out with or show off because I don’t wear wigs and appear like she and her other friends. I really don’t like how I’ve been too cautious around her. Maybe I’ll just take a step back and stop forcing it and see how it goes, and also I feel she wants to mingle with girls that can put her on better things, and I’ve been unable to help in that aspect, which is sad, but yeah, I’ll just try to let her be.
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