You see that thing of…… “It can never happen to me.” Walaiiii, e don happen to me, and e pain me o. I grew up in a dysfunctional home, and I don’t have so much access to my parents. I indulged myself most times. I didn’t do relationships seriously because I tried so much not to give power to any man because of how vulnerable I could become. Finally graduated, etc. So…. I met this guy 2 years ago, we vibed, clicked, and started dating. (I’m not a wayward person. In fact, I avoided so many things just to get it right.) And when I was finally ready for a relationship, I met him….. He’s very smart, intelligent, ambitious (name all), and I thought we liked each other. We had sex, it was my first though, and it felt nice. We would hang out, sleepovers, go on dates, check-ins, etc. There was just so much access. He would tell me he wants his own family, and I would say, “Come and see my parents.” Fast forward to, he said he wants to discuss something with me. I said okay.
Next thing, he is very sorry, blah blah, and he’s a married man, and he has grown to love me, and he can see that we are already deep into this relationship thingy. I screamed oooo, eeeeeei! I cried. I blamed myself. You know why? Because I never knew, no hints at all, not even one. Said his wife hasn’t been in the country, etc. (I’m not even interested in that.) Now he says he wants to have me as a second wife. Me?? Second wife? This part has never for once popped up in how I envision my life at all. But I’m very hurt. I’ve grown to love him a lot, I’ve become so attached, there’s just a lot of emotional attachment already. I now believe people when they say it could be very hard to leave. I’m still currently trying to detach and enjoy the moment till I leave, but it’s so hard….. It even feels like I can’t, but I’ve to choose myself at the end of the day. I can’t even think of hurting him sef or being revengeful because of how far I’ve come with him. There’s still this soft spot that can’t easily turn to hatred for him.
Upon everything wey I avoid, I can’t be with a married man, I can’t do this, I can’t do that, I won’t be wayward, I need to get it right….. Some people go just use their rubbish come pour sand for your garri. I just dey look myself dey shake my head because how did I end up in this…….. I don’t have plans to ruin another woman’s home though, but I just never knew he was a married man. I really didn’t know he was married. I didn’t. There was no clue (not one at all, bruhhh)…. Now I don’t think I can trust anybody again sef. My guards are up so much currently. I’ve been questioning a lot of things. Ahhh, e pain me ooo. Even after he told me this, we still had s€x again and again and again. It’s so hard to let go. It’s hard. And married men, stay with your wives, please and pleaseee.
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