I’m crying while typing, please don’t insult me. My whole life is about to change. I’m expecting a baby. I’m 20 and will be 21 this year. I’m about to graduate in the next week. I have done up to 8 abortions for my boyfriend and me, and I’m pregnant again. Immediately he found out, he just kept quiet. He said how he’s sure the baby is not his. He took me to the hospital, and we did a scan. It showed a possible pregnancy date, but we didn’t meet then. He started insulting me and told me I would suffer. He said I should better abort the baby. The doctor tried talking to him, but he refused. He drove off and left me. He came back and said I should enter for him to drop me. I refused and used a bike. He called me when I got home and said he wanted to go back to the hospital to ask them if it was possible because we met 4 days before the possible pregnancy date. When he got there, the doctor told him yes, that it could be possible.
He called me and told me, but he insisted he didn’t want the pregnancy. He told me I would suffer if I keep it. My parents would be disappointed, but I know they won’t abandon me. But I just don’t want to add my baby’s upkeep for my dad to take care of. But I know he will take care of my baby, but he and his brothers will be so disappointed because they have plans for me after uni. I want to keep the baby. 8 pregnancies, and I have never wanted to keep any, but this time is different. Maybe because he doesn’t want it, or maybe I’m scared. Not up to 1 week before, I did the pregnancy test, I dreamt that I was pregnant. He keeps saying he doesn’t want the baby. This is someone who has always wanted me to keep the other babies and even recently wanted me to get pregnant. He just confessed he has a side chick. I think she’s the reason he doesn’t want the baby. That’s on him. I’m keeping my baby.
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