I have been single since March 2019, and sometimes I’m scared that maybe something is wrong somewhere, or I have a spiritual husband scaring men away from me. It’s not like people haven’t shown interest in me; my bad luck just leads me to fuckboys or guys who just ghost. I’m used to it now that I don’t budge anymore or call to ask what’s wrong. I come from a family where my mom and dad are always having issues, and I’ve never seen them sleep in the same room. I’ve wondered how they gave birth to me and my siblings. Anyway, at first, I thought I had issues and stayed away from men to heal and work on myself, but it didn’t change anything. I resorted to FWB, but it’s like I’m disrespecting myself because I know I’m not cut out for it. I’m a pretty dark-skinned girl with good curves, and I know I deserve better, but now I’m exhausted with men.
I’m not an outgoing person, and I have very few friends, and sometimes everyone is just in their lane, and it gets lonely. I really want to give love a chance, but I’m tired of the kind of men I attract. It’s so bad that my friends always put me last on which of us is going to marry first. This is bad to say, but I’ll say my family is kind of trash, nobody gives an F about anyone. So, I’ve always wanted to start my own. My advice is, is there a way of attracting a good man or a serious-minded man? I’ve met trashy rich guys, so I’m not saying rich. If he can take care of me and himself, I’m okay. I still want to believe that my soulmate is out there, and I’m trying so hard not to give up on finding love. I’ll take some advice, and this might be the last time trying, and I’ll just live my life hustling and giving no fucks about men.