Good day, everyone. This is my first time sharing a story here. I met this guy long ago, though we’ve been broken up for 3 years now. But he was my first true love. Note: the breakup was caused by him because he cheated a lot. I caught him countless times, and he begged and I forgave him those times, but one thing kept bothering me: am I not enough? Mind you, I’m very beautiful. Even those he cheated with, when I saw them, they’re not as beautiful as I am. He made me question myself so much, and I made up my mind that if I went to school and met a new person, I would leave. I told him, and he begged me not to do that, saying he wouldn’t cheat anymore. Mind you, he’s caring, loving, and supports me so much. When I resumed school, we still talked and all, but I never forgot what he did to me several times, cheating. So, I met one guy. He was good to me. He asked me out. I told him I had a boyfriend, and even with that, this guy still disturbed me, but I stood my ground that I had a boyfriend. Mind you, my boyfriend was home.
Deep down, I knew he had someone else, but I wasn’t sure about it because one time I told him, “Should I visit you from school?” He said no, he was scared, and since then, I won’t lie, I had been suspecting him. Because how can a cheating man change? And even with the way I was trying not to do what I had in mind to him, he kept pushing me off. So, we stopped talking and all. He didn’t even message me again, and I didn’t also. Fast forward to October. Mind you, we started having these issues in June. June was my birthday. He didn’t gift me for my birthday. I saved N1k daily to buy the braided wig that I wore, and I went out with my friends to snap pictures. All his mind was that a guy bought it for me. I explained to him that no, I saved to buy it, but I don’t think he bought that. As I was saying, after we had not been talking for months, maybe 3 months straight, we didn’t talk. I wasn’t happy, but I know myself, I have pride because to him, he proves he’s right, and I couldn’t bring myself to message him.
And mind you, the other guy was still on my end. I was still waiting for him to reach out because, I won’t lie, I loved him so much. I waited for him so much, and he didn’t reach out to me. I had to even bring up the courage to write a breakup message for him, maybe he would ask why and talk things out with me. Guess what, guys? He only made one statement. Omo, I regretted it and immediately agreed to date the other guy so as to heal. I won’t lie, I’m still healing, and it’s been three years now. I told myself I’ll never reach out, but still, he’s still on my mind every day. Even the other guy, I no dey follow am talk. We don’t see. We see maybe twice to three times a year. I have been so hard on myself, and I’ll be finishing my school this year. I’m missing him more these days. Rantz family, please, guys, how can I forget about him? Because if I’m done with school now, I might find myself even more depressed because I am actually. My mind and heart only want him. It’s been so hard. I don’t give other guys attention to even talk to me. I want to heal and move on and meet good people.
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