Guyssss. I need help. I’m a 23-year-old girl and the daughter of a man of God, like a radical one that sees everything I do. If I kiss, he’ll see it in a vision and so on. I promise you, it’s real. And I’m a good girl. I wasn’t exposed to anything. At 19, I didn’t even know how to kiss, and I’m this kind of person that’s not okay with nakedness. Even when I entered uni, my roommates had never seen me naked. I always dress in the bathroom. I don’t like seeing their nakedness, that kind of thing. I didn’t know a lot of things until I started learning them online, or I’d ask my roommates. So now, I’m in a relationship with this guy, and I don’t know if I should say I’m shy, like really shy. I’m okay with kissing, but when he tries to touch me, I don’t know how to act, and I get really shy. He jokingly said I’m like plywood. And while we were making out, I kind of realised he wasn’t fully wrong. Him touching my b**bs doesn’t really turn me on or give me any feeling, unless it’s really intense, then I get the feeling. I don’t moan because I’m not feeling it, and I don’t know how to fake moan, so I’m actually just there. I know I’m supposed to be touching him too, but I don’t want him to go far because we won’t have s€x, so I just prevent it.
I don’t know what to do or how to react. I’ve always wanted to be experienced so I’ll take care of my man and all, but e hard oo. I can’t twerk, the yansh no dey gree shake. I don’t know how to dance, I don’t know how to ride him and all. I’m not going to give him bj for now because I have cases of mouth ulcers, and I don’t know where the preek has been. And I don’t want him to give me because I feel it’s too intense, and my pastor father will find out. I need help. I don’t want to watch p•rn. I’ve been hearing I’ll marry a pastor. Is this a sign I’m a pastor’s wife? Physical touch isn’t it for me. I prefer us talking and spending time together, which feels more romantic and intimate than making out. Or is it that I’m not in the mood? Because I can imagine us doing things in my head, and I’m turned on and like it, but in person, I don’t feel it. But I really want to learn all those things. Sometimes I watch videos on YouTube. What do I do? I need help on s€x education. Please, no judgment or insults, just advice. Thank you.
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