When do I actually have to live for me and not anybody else? When exactly do I have to become an adult? First 18 years, I lived for my parents. From 18, I had to live for my man. Eventually we give birth to a child and I have to live for my children, so now when do I actually have to live for myself? My frontal lobe is not even developed yet. I do not even know myself fully yet. I am still stuck deciding what career path I want to choose. Will I even have a career path of my own? At this point, I do not even want to be in any relationship. This is not the adulting I looked forward to, I want a life of my own. I am just 21 and I have to live like a f”cking 28. I want my life before a man now that I think about it. He keeps saying he wants me to have my life, and he keeps deciding. I want to break up. I am tired. This relationship is exhausting me. It is draining me. I do not even have a mind of my own. I want a career before a family. I feel like I am being groomed, I want to live for myself and do what I love.
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