I’ve been in love with this girl for four years. Four whole years. She asked for a break on April 2nd and even though it hurt, I agreed because honestly, I felt like I didn’t have a choice. The truth is, she had been disrespecting me for a while before that. A few weeks before the break, I experienced the worst kind of emotional blackmail. I opened up about how I felt when she chose her female friend over me and instead of talking it through, she insulted me for even speaking up. I was hurt, so I stopped talking. We both went silent for two weeks. Then I texted her and her response was simply: “Let’s go on a break.” Now I feel horrible.
I miss her deeply. I love her more than I can put into words. But I can’t bring myself to tell her anymore because the truth is she doesn’t respect me, at all. I’ve been giving 80% to this relationship, maybe even more, and I don’t think I’ve ever gotten 15% back. I’ve tried over and over again. But love should be a two-way street, not a battlefield where one person keeps losing themselves just to keep the other person happy.
I want to move on. I want to forget her. But she’s etched into my mind like a scar I can’t heal. If there was a switch to erase every memory of her, I’d flip it without a second thought. I actually put in a lot of effort but she doesn’t even see my worth or make me her priority. The friend she chose over me would never do the same for her. I’m at work right now and I can’t even work well.
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