My father left my mother when she was pregnant with me, and till today we haven’t found him. It’s been hard for my mother to raise me single-handedly. She works really hard, but I was raised in poverty. She saw me through ND even though it was hard, but couldn’t see me through HND because in 2021 we had accommodation problems and she started having issues with her leg, so she couldn’t go to work again. My ex was the one who helped me pay my school bills, and I had to learn hair making because I needed to send money home and I didn’t want to put that on him.
After a while, I was able to get my mom an apartment, and shortly after, I received a call from her that she had issues with her eyes and she couldn’t walk again, so I had to come home from school. I took her to the hospital, and the doctor said she has glaucoma, and I couldn’t even afford to pay the hospital bills. People in the hospital saw me crying and contributed money for me. I used the money to do a few tests and buy medicines, but there was no proper treatment. I had to take her back home, and after a while she went completely blind and lame. Mind you, I’m the only child.
Since then, I’ve been taking care of myself and my mom, and it’s been hard because I’m just 25 years old and I haven’t been able to focus on myself because of bills. The most annoying part is my ex started acting up at some point and we broke up. Since then, I haven’t found another person, no supporter, no help from anyone for over a year now. I don’t know why I don’t have a boyfriend despite being pretty and hardworking, and I’m really scared of what happened to my mom repeating itself in my life. Should I keep praying from the corner of my room or seek spiritual help?
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