I will be 25 this year and I have a business of my own, that was because I didn’t know how to ask for money, I just had to work for money. The bad news is that due to how I have been sexually abused in the past, I no longer have feelings for men. I just want to use them to satisfy my sexual cravings. I develop hatred for men immediately we have sex, I no longer want to have anything to do with them. Four years back, I dated a guy while I was in school, it was my first relationship, 100 level.
I did not love him but I accepted him because I wanted to be with someone and I explained how I was sexually abused in the past but I did not tell him the hatred part after sex. This guy used my past against me. Firstly, he asked me to bring my belongings to his hostel, we started staying together as couples. He would collect my phone for 3 days except my parents called, turned me to his sex toy, we would have sex 3 times in a day everyday and he would lock me inside his hostel. After two years of dating, this guy later broke up with me and moved on with someone else.
That was fire. After some months, I met a guy on IG, he wanted us to be friends which I was cool with. Our friendship lasted for months before sex came in. And since then, this guy started developing feelings for me. I ended the friendship with him and blocked him everywhere because I don’t want him anymore. The problem is I wish I had a boyfriend but I’m finding it difficult to love. What can I do guys?
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