I met this boy in April–July 2023. Mind you, I was a virgin then. The next day after we talked, he took me to a hotel. He was 21 years old, and I was 18. I told him I was a virgin. He was so happy, and we had sex that day. It was painful, and only a small amount of blood came out. Fast forward, we started dating. The guy was overprotective. He didn’t want me to talk to other girls, he always wanted to check my phone, and he didn’t allow me to post any man even if it was for a birthday. I always had to tell him where I was going every day. Any small issue would make him stop talking to me. You know what I mean, he would start giving me the silent treatment. Also, I didn’t know how to ask for money. Even though I rarely asked, he wouldn’t give me anything. I always hustled for myself. Any small disagreement or if I went out without telling him, he would stop talking to me for like two weeks. Whenever he wanted to have sex, he would chat me and as mugu wey I be, I would go because I loved him so much. Since 2023, we never cheated on each other. He was my first love, and I was his first love. We disvirgined ourselves. The only thing I knew about him was that he didn’t hate me, but he loved sex too much. Also, he didn’t give me much money or take care of me that much, but he was trying. Since 2023, we always had issues, and he would give me silent treatment for weeks, even months. Fast forward to 2024, I was working and got sacked, and I couldn’t tell him what was happening. I needed money, and I was so depressed, so I cheated on him with an older man. The man gave me N50k. I regretted it because I’m not the type to sleep with many men, let alone older men. The day I went to his house, he was checking my phone and saw our chats. He had bought the phone, so I couldn’t hide anything. He removed my SIM card and chased me out of the house. I was so depressed and frustrated because I loved him so much. I tried to explain, but he didn’t give me anything unless I asked. I needed money and was depressed until I later found work. I worked hard, and by November, I bought a new phone since I was working as a waitress. Fast forward to January, he messaged me using my number. He asked for forgiveness, and I also asked forgiveness. We forgave each other and started dating again. However, he was still doing the same controlling things he had done since 2023. Any small issue, he would stop talking to me. He was overprotective. Whenever he was horny, he would chat me up and mugu me we go and see him. Mind you, since 2023, we have been having sex raw, without a condom. Around April, I was expecting my period and didn’t see it, so I took a test and found out I was pregnant. At that time, he wasn’t talking to me, so I messaged him and told him. He told me not to abort it, but his friends were telling me I should because their family doesn’t support abortion and that he was not ready to be a father. They said I would be the only one carrying the pregnancy. I was afraid, so I went for a scan and later found out the pregnancy had not formed. I told him, and he came to our street and told me to come out. At first, he wanted to deny it, but later he told me not to ab0rt it, threatening me that night that he would show my mom screenshots saying I had cheated on him before. He had screenshots since 2024 claiming he was not the one who got me pregnant, but it was him, I know what I’m saying; I never slept with anyone else. Fast forward, I later did the abortion. Do you know what the boy was doing? He was cursing and asking why I did it. In the final say, he blocked me and told me he could not sleep with me again, saying his family has nothing to do with a person who had an ab0rtion for a pregnancy that never formed. He blocked me everywhere. I carried the weight of everything that day. I regretted it so much, but I had to do it because he is not financially stable and wanted to deny it. Now, two months later, I am still crying over it. I want to text him so badly so we can get back together. Please advise me on what to do. I am emotionally drained. I love him so much that I am afraid to lose him, even though he didn’t treat me well.
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