There’s this guy I met on Tinder. We started talking and then I asked if we could talk on Snapchat instead, and he agreed. We started talking and everything was nice and chill. We were actually bonding. We even prayed in the middle of the night together. Although he said he wasn’t looking for a serious relationship and that he wanted to focus more on making it in life, I was already loving up, but I did my very best in hiding how I actually felt because I knew he wasn’t down for something serious. A few times, he said he loved me and that he missed me, but the energy I was getting from him was mixed, so I told him not to joke around with such words because I don’t joke about my feelings. He stays in Lagos while I’m in school, but I live in Lagos too. Two weeks after we started talking, I went home to Lagos for some time and he was aware. When it was two days to when I was leaving for school, I told him, and he said we could meet up at his house. I declined and told him that I couldn’t because it would be our first time meeting and I wasn’t comfortable coming over to his house for the first time.
He said it’s not a problem, and that when I’m comfortable, I can come over. I proceeded to ask if we would still see before I went back to school because in my mind, there are other places in Lagos we could have hung out without having to spend money if that’s what he was concerned about. He said there’s nothing he could do again since he said I should come over and I refused. I replied, saying I guess we’ll meet if destiny wants us to meet, and he said yeah. I replied with “🫶” and he opened it without replying. After this, he didn’t speak to me for two days. We had been speaking every single day since we started talking. I was actually heartbroken and pained because he actually made me feel like I had a friend I could lean on, but his actions made me feel like I was just another fling he wanted to use to pass time. So after two days, I sent a text message to him saying that I pray he’s successful in life and reaches his goals, and that everything I said while we spoke was from the sincerest parts of my heart, and that it’s not nice to make someone feel like they were loved or like they had a friend only to take it back.
After that message, I didn’t wait for his reply and I unadded him. Snapchat was the only way we communicated and personally I was tired of falling victim to playboys and emotionally unavailable guys because I be mumu for love. I really miss him and feel like adding him back. Should I add him back or should I keep imagining that if he actually did like me a lot, he’d come and find me in my school? Because that’s the only other information he has about me and it’s not far from Lagos. I miss him so much, but I’m scared that if he doesn’t feel the way I feel about him and I add him back, he’ll most likely take advantage of how I feel.
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