In year 2019, I was dating my ex. He broke up with me for no reason. I was really heartbroken because he was my first love. So there was this guy I had on my WhatsApp. We were just texting. He didn’t ask me out but just asked me to come and visit him, which I declined at first. After some time, I went to see him at home. He came with his friend, whose name was L, to pick me up. So I sat in the sitting room. Later on, he called me inside. It happened that we had sex, which I’m still regretting till today. I did it not because I genuinely wanted it. I was heartbroken and I didn’t even know what I was doing then because I was still very young. So after that day, I didn’t feel like having conversations with him. It was like I hated him after that day. I was like, “What did I just do?” So I avoided him at all costs and succeeded. So after some while, that his friend that came together with him to pick me, messaged me on WhatsApp. I was like, “Who is this?” and he told me who he was. So we started conversing and he said he likes me. I was wondering, “This is the same person that followed his friend to come pick me up, and now he’s telling me he likes me when he knew I had a thing with his friend?” So initially, I never believed he liked me. I just went to see him. He was really kind to me and we had sex. After that day, I also stopped talking with him, but I liked him. I and any of them never met again till after 3 years. I followed my friend to the field to play football and I saw him there. I mean the L that I had a thing to do with last. I was really ashamed. I couldn’t look at his face. I acted like I didn’t see him. Fast forward to last year, August 2024, on my birthday he followed me on IG and I remembered his name. He added me up and it was my birthday. We started talking after how many years since 2019. So we were actually cool and we started remembering the past and I told him he shouldn’t remind me of the past because I’m not proud of it. I feel so ashamed of it but he keeps telling me that was my past.
Secondly, he didn’t meet me at a hookup site or one junction, he said. At this point, we are beginning to love each other. In fact, we are in love. And he keeps telling me I should forget about what happened in the past, that he never knew I was heartbroken, that that was why I did what I did, and that he has always loved me from the very day he saw me.
He knew his friend wouldn’t have anything serious with me. That’s why he collected my contact from him then. So he never knew I had all of these good qualities of a woman. So even me myself, I know that’s my past and I feel so bad about it. That after how many years, we are in love. So long story cut short, we are in love. We are dating since last year till date, and it’s a very peaceful relationship. I love him so much.
He’s too calm for my liking. He’s too good to be true. He takes good care of me, advises me like his junior sister. He’s not always in Nigeria. Right now he’s not around. He left in February but would be back in few months. So we are in love, but I keep thinking about the past.
He said he doesn’t care about what his friend is going to say, that it’s his own personal life and whatever happened in the past remains in the past. But I keep feeling we are not going to end well or end up together because of the past. So I really want y’all to advise me. I don’t to cheat on him. I love him so much.
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