Hiii Rantandtalkz family, it’s been a while. In case you’re curious about my age, I’m 19. I’m highly intelligent and a first-class student in case you want to tell me to focus on my books. I’ve been having issues with my boyfriend ever since I told him I cheated (it was a kiss, I’m a virgin) on him. I didn’t plan on telling him, but the guilt kept eating me. When I told him, he got a little mad and said we shouldn’t talk about it again, and I was glad. We didn’t talk about it for like 4 months until recently. His friends started telling me all sorts of things about me sleeping around with different guys and me entering the boys’ hostel with the most revealing outfit ever—which are all lies, by the way.
Everything everyone has said about me to him are lies, but he doesn’t believe me. I don’t blame him because I know the trust is gone, and it’s going to take a while to rebuild it, but he’s been getting so controlling lately. He doesn’t want me having any male friends while he has female friends. The only guy I should talk to is him, but I’m not the only girl he talks to.
I do not plan on cheating anymore; in fact, I regret cheating on him, but I don’t think I can continue with the relationship. It’s different and I don’t know how to explain it. He’s been asking for sex repeatedly, telling me he’s tired of waiting when he clearly knows I’m waiting till marriage. I also don’t regret telling him, but I feel it’s just better if I took a break from men. I’m still young and still have my future to focus on. It’s just mentally exhausting as I’m dealing with final year projects while dealing with him too.
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