I have been dating this guy for almost a year now and I love him so much. I mean, it’s shocking even for me because I didn’t think it was humanly possible to love someone that much. He loves me too in his own way, but we have one problem—my babe is not exactly emotionally inclined, so he doesn’t understand anything emotion-related. He’s trying, and I believe it’s something he’d eventually work his way through. We fight a lot and he’s the type that is quick to issue a breakup after an argument. It bothers me sometimes, and other times it doesn’t because I know he would be back to apologize after a couple of days. My babe doesn’t give compliments or support whatsoever; he finds gifting and spending somewhat difficult, but in the last three months he has done really sweet things that I didn’t even have to ask for. We broke up like 6 months into the relationship and it was our first ever big fight. I mean, we had each other blocked for almost two months and I genuinely thought it was over because I was really hurt.
During this period, I met someone and I am in no way attracted to this person. He just helped me through a phase where I was struggling. Overwhelmed from the breakup, I got really high and I hooked up with this guy. I mean, it wasn’t even like proper sex because like 5 minutes into it I moaned my ex’s name and it snapped us both out of what we were doing. I felt really bad because I felt it was too early after the breakup to be intimate with someone else. We both talked about it and agreed to pretend like it never happened. After I got back with my ex, he asked if I was with anyone else and I lied. Honestly, I was scared of his reaction. I thought he wouldn’t want to be with me anymore if he found out. I even stopped talking to the other guy because I didn’t want to give him the wrong idea. This is four months after, and my babe is sick so I offered to stay to help him around the house and take him to the hospital. I got here last night and I did a lot of cooking and running around, so I was quite exhausted by nighttime.
I slept off and he decided to go through my phone. He saw a conversation between me and a girlfriend of mine where I was telling her how bad I felt after the whole incident. He woke me up and he looked really hurt and pissed. I’ve never seen him like that before. I tried explaining and apologizing, but he won’t even look at me or let me touch him. I know I messed up by lying or getting with someone so soon after our breakup, but I honestly didn’t intend to hurt him. I still need to take care of him, but he won’t speak to me. I don’t know what to do.
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