I met my boyfriend in June; he texted me here on Instagram. We connected so well, unlike the guys in my DMs that I couldn’t get a genuine connection with. I didn’t want to date anybody out of pity or boredom. We met in real life, went on a date, and I’ve loved him unconditionally ever since. I stopped entertaining other men because I can’t double date. Sometimes I even wonder if he “locked” me because I can’t recall the last time I loved a man this deeply. I’m 25 and he’s 26, so I think we have a lot of relatable things. Now, after a while, it dawned on me that he wasn’t the sweet, calm lover boy I fell in love with, but rather a Lagos city boy. Every time he hurts me, he puts the blame on Lagos girls, saying they made him the way he is and that he didn’t know he’d ever meet a good girl in Lagos. He claims he’s working on himself to love me better, but I’m not a Lagos girl;
I moved here for work and business barely a year ago. So why do I have to suff£r for something I know nothing about? I’ve thr£atened to break up countless times, and I even did once. He came back begging with his friends, and I forgave him because I really love him. Sometimes he says things like, “Do you think the ones outside are better? I know I’m not perfect, but you might meet worse when you leave me. I love you so much, and I’m changing.” But he only gets better for a few days, then goes back to “factory reset.” Mind you, I’m not dependent on this boy for money, so that’s not why I’m with him. I work, and though I don’t earn much, I manage myself and I’m content. Right now, he’s going through financial issues and I still try to help him out from the little I have. I’ve done so much for him — more than he’s ever done for me, to be honest. Now when I threaten to leave, he says it’s because he’s broke, but that’s not true.
My friends have told me to leave him and stop dating for love; they say I’m too emotional and that love doesn’t work in Lagos. They even say when he gets back on his feet financially, it’s possible he’ll become worse. But the problem is, I really love him. I don’t know why I can’t just shut my heart on him. I’m hurting so much, I cry myself to sleep every night. I’ve begged God to make me stop loving so much. I just want to love and be loved right. Is that too much to ask for? Why is everyone in Lagos so wicked and incapable of genuine love? I just had to come here to rant and ask. I’m sure he’ll read this too, and he’ll know I wrote it because he follows this page. But I don’t care at this point. I just want to be happy and loved wholly. Please, what do I do? I’ll be in the comments.
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