I’m in a relationship with my boyfriend, and we’ve been together for six years now. However, our relationship has been on and off. I always break up with him due to his behavior—he isn’t romantic, but he tries. He has multiple female friends, which makes me insecure. I love him deeply, and he knows this. I’m aware he loves me too, but he doesn’t bring the same energy I bring into the relationship. He makes me happy, but he follows lots of girls, which hurts me. We’ve both hurt each other equally. I broke up with him a month ago, and since then, I’ve been missing him terribly.
I don’t want to go back, but I tried blocking him, and I ended up unblocking him again. I see him in my dreams, and his name is always there. I think about him all the time, even when I sleep and wake up. I’ve tried moving on from him many times, but it doesn’t work because I’m madly in love with him. He just breaks my heart all the time. I’m tired of always breaking up and coming back to him. Something is definitely wrong with me. I’ve prayed to God to help me remove him from my life, but instead, I keep seeing his name written in my dreams all the time. I even hear people saying his name in my dreams.
I really don’t know what to do. What is this called? He’s not my first boyfriend—he’s the fourth guy I’ve dated. His is too different, and I find it hard to leave him. No matter how many times I break up, I still want him back. I don’t have attachment issues; I can easily leave people, but with him, it’s different 😔.
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