I dated my ex for a year before we broke up due to trust issues from his end, which was my fault anyway. Yet he still didn’t want to leave, but that’s not even why I want to rant. I feel like an imposter right now. I recently lost my job for absolutely no reason, and that put me in a difficult position. My ex had been hinting for months, even before the breakup, that I should go into tech, but I kept using work as an excuse, saying I was busy. Now I’m not. Since I lost my job, this guy has put me on a weekly allowance of ₦80k to ₦100k. He buys me groceries and gives me money to cook and buy fuel. He even added to the last money I got from work and bought me a laptop to start learning a tech skill. As good as all this feels, I’m still scared. I feel like it’s not a good thing for me to be under his care. He’s not asking for anything in return, but I don’t want to disappoint him either. He’s investing in me and trusting me to do this. I have started learning, but it’s hard. Sometimes I just want to leave it and watch movies, but my conscience is always disturbing me.
The truth is, I don’t have a choice. It’s either I learn this skill or go back to a 9-to-5 job with low pay and no security that it won’t slip away again. He said he’s ready to support me for a year if that’s how long it takes for me to learn the skill. He’s into tech as well, but this thing is not easy at all. Omo, I feel overwhelmed, afraid for my future, and dependent on someone who doesn’t even want to date me again. He just wants me to build my life. The whole thing is eating me up.
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