Lately, a lot has been running through my mind. Funny how I’ve even become what I have always told people to avoid. Just three days ago, I was contemplating su**ide. Academic life is zero. Business is zero. I have always been strong, you know. Everybody knows me as this strong girl who is always happy and smiling, but only my pillow knows my true emotions. I just hope I can survive this phase. It is really hard on me, but I’m trying my best, even though I don’t have anyone to talk to. I soak myself in my emotions. I have lost confidence in myself. I feel like a failure. I even forgot how to pray. I’m currently in 400 level, and my CGPA is second class lower. I don’t know how to break the news to my family. I was going to end it all, but my dad called, and he was so happy and playful on the call. I just felt it wouldn’t be right to hurt this man. I just hope I have the strength to overcome this phase. I have tried my possible best for my CGPA to rise, but God knows best. It is really depressing, to be honest.
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