I’m in a long-distance relationship with a man who’s 9 years older than me. I’m 25. It’s been a good relationship, different from everything I’ve been used to. I’m glad to be with him as it’s a love that’s calm, sane, and safe. He is the first child out of 4 and the breadwinner. He has crazy responsibilities towards them. Overall, he’s a responsible man. He doesn’t splurge on me like my exes, but when I ask him for a little cash, he gives. He gets me gifts for special days like birthdays and Valentine’s. I really love him, and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He’s talking marriage and plans on coming home for us to lock it down. Unfortunately, I acted out of character guys. I was h0rny because, for 6 months now, we’ve been long-distance as he’s outside the country. I’ve definitely been loyal, so waves of loneliness come in occasionally, and I just sleep it off because what else can I do?
I was ovulating, and I think it intensified my emotions because I got so h0rny. I wanted to be held so bad. I felt lonely and alone, and then my ex was calling and calling, begging as they always do, coincidentally on the same day I was feeling this. I blocked that one off because what agent of darkness is that? But my emotions got hold of me, and I started having voices in my head telling me, “You cut everyone off for this man. What if he ends up hurting you?” It worsened my feelings, and I then told my man I was h0rny, but he didn’t really address it or pet me to the extent I wanted. But guys, he was at a wedding. I should have just let him have fun, but no, I started saying plenty of things instead and calling him like crazy (he’s at a party o). I got erratic and started texting him that he’s selfish and doesn’t care about me. My emotions got a hang of me, and I said a lot.
I said he doesn’t know how to treat a woman, I said I h8ted him, I said all those silly things. It was just my emotions that were haywire. I ended up sleeping, as usual, whenever I get h0rny. What will I do? I can’t put my relationship at risk by cheating because of sex. However, my man updates me about his movement. Even when I’m asleep, whenever he gets home, he would call. Maybe he won’t this time because of what I said, but he would have texted. He didn’t, and I’m scared I’ve lost a good man. I don’t want him to think I’m tox!c or something. It was genuinely emotions. Please, how do I apologize to him? He’s mature, and I’d appreciate it if anyone can help me with a heartfelt apology or how to go about this. Please, I don’t want to be tagged as crazy. I was just ovulating and h0rny. Please help me save this relationship. Thank you.