My relationship feels like I’m trapped. My boyfriend is calm, gentle, and quiet, but at the same time, he’s nonchalant. He doesn’t put effort into anything. We’ve been dating for 6 years, and we’ve never been on a proper romantic date. I love gifts. I usually gift him before, but he doesn’t reciprocate, so I stopped. And I think it’s because we live together. We’ve lived together for 6 years. I don’t know how to describe it, but the little things that matter to me, he doesn’t pay attention. He has been there for me financially, and I’ve been there for him too, but I don’t feel any emotions between us. I’m a big lover girl, but now I act nonchalant, and that’s not me. Sexually, noooo. He doesn’t make me cum.
He doesn’t like to explore, and on the other hand, I’m crazy but I hide it from him. A young boy wey no dey give or receive head, just missionary, and it’s not sweet because there’s no emotion or tension. Now he doesn’t get me wet, so if I don’t buy lubricant, he won’t buy maybe because he’s ashamed. For six good years, I don’t get orgasm. I didn’t want to cheat, so I got a vibrator and hid it from him because I tried having a discussion with him about it, but he was against it, so I hid it from him. He finally saw it, and I told him the reason why. Fast forward to this year, I left the house and went to my friend’s place in school.
I told him I couldn’t take it anymore because everyone thought our relationship was perfect because he was quiet and seemed gentle. I went to my friend’s place and didn’t return because I knew he thought I’d return the next day, but I didn’t for a week. And then he was calling, begging, and crying and saying he’ll change. These things he’s saying he has said them over and over, but once we are back to normal, he’ll care less again. Right now, I’m fed up and I want to leave. I’m typing in tears. He’ll be hurt, but I’ve been hurting myself just so I don’t hurt him. Mind you, I feel he just wants to be in my life because I’m a good woman and not to brag, I have potential. I’m from a poor home, and all my sisters have suffered at the hands of men.
They’re good girls, way better than me, and I don’t want to be like them. Mind you, my boyfriend does only Yahoo, and when he hasn’t cashed out, I cater for us, sometimes a year, sometimes months. Right now, I have the money to relocate to a new city and start afresh, but some things are holding me down. How do I leave? I feel so bad. Sometimes I feel I should just stay, but I can’t marry a person who can’t make me cum. He doesn’t want to learn; he’s so okay the way he is. If he cums, he’s gone to wash. Whether I’m satisfied doesn’t concern him. Right now, I’m worried about something. I’ve been crying about something. He opened the door, told me sorry, and went back to his game. I just felt typing here would make me feel better. Thank you.
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