Dear future parents, please do whatever you can to raise your children well. Don’t give birth to children you can’t take care of. Always look out for them and be a listening ear. I feel like my world is coming apart. I used to want to get married as a virgin, but look at me now with 3 body counts at 20! I’m doing everything I once criticized. I hate the way I’m turning out to be. I just want to fall in love and be with that person. I cheated on my partner today, and I feel so guilty. Why did I do this? It’s because of nothing but greed. I do very well in my studies and I work as well, but I barely earn anything. Things got bad for my parents, and I’m practically on my own. It has been so difficult taking care of myself; at times I get influenced by my peers. I want to live the life. Judge me all you want, but peer pressure is real and very dangerous. But at the end of the day, is all this really worth it?
I feel so stupid and disgusted with myself. I wish I could erase it from my mind. I wish I could go back in time. I wish things didn’t get so bad for my parents. I wish they listened to me more. What bad decisions will I do next, oh lord? I’m sorry for cheating on him. I was nothing but greedy. I hate the life I’m living. I have tried to do various work, but nothing is working out for me. Whatever money I get, I spend it on school. I can’t put my parent’s responsibility on my boyfriend. I hate being a burden to him. I don’t want him to see me as a liability. How can I cheat on a person I claim to love? My friends convinced me that I’m not doing anything bad, but why am I feeling so terrible? I can’t look him in the eye anymore. I can’t tell him the truth either. I’m so sorry, and I hope you find someone better.
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