Omo, I’ve been crying since last night. The only guy I’ve ever loved genuinely told me he doesn’t have feelings for me anymore. I cried my heart out, and I’ve been begging him, but he said he can’t develop the feeling anymore, and we can just be friends. I met him on his birthday in 2021. I texted him first to wish him a happy birthday with no intention just because he’s handsome, and then we kicked off from there. We started dating sometime later, but I don’t know what got over me and I broke up with him. To cut the long story short, he begged for a long time, and I came back to my senses, and we started dating again. After some months, I wasn’t feeling the same, and then I had a conversation with him and broke up again. That was last year. We’ve been friends since then. They are very good friends. Always supported each other in the best ways we could, and then I developed feelings for him again. This time, it wasn’t like before. I loved him more than I did the first time we met. I told him, and he said he wasn’t ready to be in a relationship, that if I was single when he’d be ready, he’d ask me out again. I was okay with it ‘cause I wasn’t interested in anyone else. During that time, different guys asked me out, but I wasn’t interested because I loved this guy so much, and I knew he loved me too. His friends always insulted him because he was still on talking terms with me.
Fast forward to a few weeks back, he started behaving strangely, he was texting like he used to, and I was always complaining. His friends always insulted him because he was still on talking terms with me. Then I found out he started talking to another girl last week. In just a week, they’ve gone so far. He told me he lost feelings for me. He said he still loved me but not as much as he used to, and he didn’t see himself getting into a relationship with me anymore because of what people would say, and the insult was too much. I tried to make him reason with me ‘cause everything happened about a year ago, but his friends still mock him to date, but he didn’t want to listen. My chest hurts. I know I messed up big time, but this pain is too much. I’ve been having suicidal thoughts, but I can never commit suicide because I know how disappointed my parents and family will feel. I just want this pain to end. I tried distracting myself some time ago by texting new people, but it didn’t work. I haven’t had a good three hours of rest since yesterday. Please you guys should advise me because I’m still ready to beg him. I don’t want to lose him.
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