Rantandtalkz family, I have messed up big time. I’ve been in a real relationship for 6 years now, and I’m 31 years old. The thing is, I have a fiancée who is the most important part of my life. This girl has taught me a lot of good things—business ideas, and how to overcome depression. Like, she has always shown me love and peace of mind for the past 6 years. We have a 2-year-old son together, so we have done introductions, see Rant’s family, when I’m talking about beauty, intelligence, and smartness, that’s my baby girl. In this 6 years of relationship, I have cheated on her like 4 times because she’s too smart; if not, maybe it would have passed like that. I love her so so much, but I don’t know why I still cheat on her. This last cheating I did made my cup full like this. She called me to say that she would be coming over the following day because she was really stressed out (she’s into business and she’s also a final year pharmacy student, coupled with nursing a toddler).
I said ok, and I was with one girl. So, I just wanted to rush a quickie sex with the girl and then discharge her that night. I didn’t know that I’d mistakenly called my fiancée back. Omo, she heard all the moans, like everything, through the phone call. It was after I was done that I realized I mistakenly called her back, and she didn’t hang up throughout. I was just shaking, like there was nothing for me to explain anymore. I know how my fiancée despises cheating so so much. I used anger to send the girl away that night, and still yet, I couldn’t even say one thing to my babe. She came the next day acting like nothing was wrong, she was just awkwardly smiling at me. I begged her tiredly, I bought gifts to beg her, but she kept saying she didn’t understand why I was begging her. At some point, I started thinking maybe she didn’t actually hear anything.
Not until I walked in on her crying bitterly and praying inside the room yesterday, that God should make her forget what she heard. She was wailing seriously, holding her chest, and was crying. I prostrated immediately; I was crying and begging her, Naso my babe cleaned her face and said she was only praying to God, that why am I begging her. Rantandtalkz family, this silence is killing me. I want her to fight me and express her hurt. I’m always scared anytime she suddenly smiles at me. I can’t even eat her food. Our marriage has been fixed already, which is after her graduation in May. I don’t want to lose her. Please, you guys should help me before I lose my sanity.
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