I met this guy last year, and things just clicked between us almost immediately. It turned out he had a girlfriend, but he wanted us to be sneaky links. I honestly regret agreeing to it because I’ve developed feelings for him. It’s been almost seven months since we started seeing each other, but I decided to end things with him last week because I just felt things couldn’t work out between us. I’ve been hurting ever since. I had to lie to him that I was in a relationship and wanted to focus on it when I ended things. Now, the thing is, this guy has been so loving and caring to me. There are times I forget he’s in a relationship because of how well we bonded. We tell each other “I love you” and how much we miss each other. This guy can’t resist me anytime we’re together. He’s so s€xually attracted to me and tells me how much he enjoys s€x with me. He always puts my feelings first, makes sure he does nothing to hurt me, and confides in me about personal matters. I feel he’s not really into his girlfriend because they rarely see each other, even though they are in the same state. They don’t even call each other anytime I’m there. He doesn’t take her out the way he takes me out.
This guy loves being around me, and I practically know his friends, and they know me as well. Some of his friends even think we’re in a relationship. His girlfriend caught him cheating in the first month we started seeing each other. I thought he was going to end things between us, but he didn’t, and his girlfriend forgave him. So when I ended things with him using the excuse of being in a relationship, I did so because I knew he would want to reach out to me and talk things through, and I didn’t want to be in competition with another lady whom I know I’m more beautiful than. A part of me wishes he would text me so we could talk things through because I miss him every day. I miss talking to him. I miss hearing his voice. I don’t know if I made the right decision by letting him go because this guy has never done me wrong or hurt my feelings in any way. I just wish I never agreed to have anything to do with him in the first place. Right now, I’m just using the statement, “If it was meant to be, it will be,” to console myself. I can’t believe I honestly thought of a future with him. One thing I’m certain of is that the feelings were not one-sided. I know for a fact that he developed feelings for me too. I just need to distract myself to prevent myself from texting him. Oh, and by the way, we still keep streaks with each other. Lol. I just want to ask if letting him go is justified because sometimes I feel like I made a huge mistake.
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