I want to talk about my academic journey because it has been really challenging for me. When I got into 100 level, I started strong. I’m not the most brilliant student, but I was trying my best. I had a GPA of 4.04 in my first semester and 4.09 in my second semester. However, I later changed to another department because I didn’t like the course I was studying. That decision marked the beginning of my struggles. In my first semester of 200 level, my GPA dropped to 2.6, and I had my first carryover. It was very shocking because I actually studied hard. I almost lost my mind trying to process it, and it took me months to recover emotionally. My CGPA dropped to 3.6, which was very painful for me. In the second semester of 200 level, I put in even more effort, attending night classes, sacrificing sleep, and doing everything I could to improve. I managed to get a GPA of 3.7, but my CGPA remained at 3.6, and I still had another carryover. In my department, any score below 50% is a fail, and I got 43 in one of the courses. That moment really broke me. I opened up to my mum and cried because it felt like all my effort was going to waste. Now I’m in 300 level, and I just finished my first semester exams.
Out of my courses, seven are departmental, which means I must score at least 50% in all of them to avoid carryovers. I’m very scared because there is a 3-unit course I didn’t do well in, and I’m worried about failing it. I don’t want my CGPA to drop further, and this fear has been affecting me deeply. I think about it every day, and it has started to take a serious toll on my mental health. My dad is very strict and also a lecturer, which makes the pressure even worse. I’m afraid of disappointing him, and I regret switching departments because things have become much harder. I still have five semesters left, and the courses are getting more difficult. Even though I study, it feels like my efforts are not paying off, and that makes me very sad and discouraged. Do you guys think I can still make it. Please talk to me like I’m your younger sister. I’m so scared of not graduating with second class upper.
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