I have been broken for a while now. I’m a 29-year-old lady staying alone. I’m currently serving though, and I have a small business that pays my bills too. But I’ve never been lucky in relationships. I’ve slept with almost 30 different guys (I didn’t do hookup), including a priest. I’ve even slept with a married man inside his car. The thing is, I’m not happy about my body count. Though you won’t know because my body is still tight, as I don’t have sex always. Sometimes I stay 6 months without sex. I grew up without anyone telling me what life is, because my mum died 20 years ago and my dad has another wife. So it’s just me doing what I think is right. My last relationship ended in December because I felt he wasn’t serious. It was a distant relationship of 4 years. I think he has moved on. So recently, there’s this guy that was liking me, but he had a girlfriend then. So I didn’t agree though, because he wanted us to be having fun since he was in a relationship. But I said no—I don’t like hurting my fellow girl. So recently, he broke up with her a few months ago and now we’ve had s€x like 4 times.
The first time, he said he’s liking me more ever since the first sex, that he needed to be sure of his feelings, that he doesn’t want to hurt me and he doesn’t want to turn me into his sex partner. So after then, along the line, we had sex again and now I’m loving him for real. But he said something to me yesterday—that we’re not dating, that he doesn’t want any of us to get hurt, that he’s not my man and I’m not his woman yet, that he doesn’t want to rush things. I said OK. Me, I want to be celibate for a while to rewrite my life again. And men don’t approach me like that again. My pastor said it’s spiritual husband and I’m tired of fighting it alone. I might just commit suicide one day because everyone is asking me “when are you getting married?” Please, I need your advice sincerely.
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