I’m a 20-year-old boy. I had my first sex when I was 18 in Uni (100L) because this my ex I was dating then had friends who weren’t virgins anymore and I think that got into her head. She said to me in my DM one night when we were talking that she wanted us to have sex. At first, I said no, but she pressured me with saying she would have to go and have the sex with a male friend of hers. I got threatened and gave in. I arranged a friend’s place because I stay in school hostel and she isn’t a student from my school. She came. The first day I didn’t do it because I was scared of getting her pregnant and I didn’t get a condom when I was going there that day, so I just fingered her and through that she got deflowered. On our second meeting, she came to my friend’s place again but this time around she got the condom from home herself and I went 4 rounds on her because that particular day, rain fell. The third and fourth time was at my friend’s place but the fifth and sixth time were on Sundays when she came to visit me in school and we made those days unholy ones (may the Lord forgive me).
After the sixth one, we had a small fight, had to distance ourselves, but at that moment her phone got broken. By the time she got a new one, she already moved on and I was there waiting for her to return. Since I waited, she allowed me to have a last s€x with her which I did, and after that day, I have been single. But few weeks later, I started having this urge to have sex again and since then I started masturbation. For the past 1 year, I don’t go a day without masturbating once, twice or 3 times a day. I need help please. The first sex was the worst mistake I ever made in my life.
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