Hello. I’ve been married for 6 years now. We have 3 toddlers, but recently, my husband has been having affairs. Anytime I catch him, he’s always remorseful and apologizes. He always says I don’t value him, that I disrespect him, and that’s why he cheats. Every time I complain about the women, he tells them not to contact him directly anymore — they should reach him through his PA. He tells them he’s home with his family, and they shouldn’t call unless he calls them. Honestly, I’m tired. Finding out your husband is having unprotected sex is not something anyone is mentally prepared for. On Valentine’s Day, I caught him sending flowers to one of the woman. I didn’t confront him about it, but he went through my phone and discovered I knew.
That’s how he woke me up at 2 AM, on his knees, apologizing and saying he only sent the flowers to push her away and close that chapter. He said he had ended all communication with her. I said okay. Fast forward to April — I discovered he’s still communicating with her. I also found out he has been having sex with her. Every time I confront him about his affairs, he becomes moody, withdrawn, and looks depressed. He goes out and comes back late at night. I recently discovered that on those nights, when we argue and he stays out late, he actually checks into a hotel with one of the woman — having sex and fun — and then comes back home acting remorseful. I’m honestly tired. I feel sorry for my kids because they are young and they adore their dad. He is a good husband in other aspects — he takes care of us and the home. He’s a great dad, always present at school activities and birthdays. He always shows up. He says if I leave him, he won’t survive it. He says he loves me so much, but I don’t believe him because I’ve heard him say “I love you” to other women. I really want to leave, but I don’t know how. I wish I had a house of my own — I think that would make it easier. Leaving a marriage takes a lot of strength, and most people won’t even listen when you say you’re leaving because your husband is cheating. They just say, “All men cheat.” But I’m losing my mind. I need help.
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