It all started when I dated my first boyfriend when I was still in university. I mean, we dated for 5 years and I can say there were lots of ups and downs in the relationship which I overcame at the long run. The guy I am talking about does not take me out, he does not want people to see me around him, just the two of us alone. At first, I thought he loved his private life, not knowing I was shooting myself in the leg. I have ignored men for him just to show him how loyal I am. Though he gives the little he has, and I don’t complain in any way. Fast forward to last two months, I noticed a girl with him because someone leaked the information to me. I tried to check the girl’s account on both TikTok and Instagram. I felt so bad because this same person that said he doesn’t want us to go out ended up taking the girl on a date. So, I went ahead to confront him, then he said it was all lies. I felt so much pain that I could not eat for days.
I felt betrayed because he was my first love anyways. Then I proceeded with the silent treatment, and I finally had the courage to leave because I don’t want to be loved like this for the rest of my life. Guys, after 3 weeks of crying and thinking, I met someone else ooo. The guy is a soccer player for an international team. We met through a friend, though, and we got talking. He then confessed his feelings to me. But guys, in reality, I am so scared because of the trauma I got from the first guy. At the moment, I don’t know what to do.
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