I envy those who married or are still in a relationship with their first love, likewise those who get parent or boyfriend support when they get pregnant. I had abortion twice, and every time I thought of it, it hit me bad that I cried every time it came back to me. I loved the wrong guys twice. The first said I should abort it because he needs to put his life together, while the second was the worst (devil in angel form). Lol. He used me as a revenge plan because he hasn’t overcome the trauma he had in his last relationship and made me kee another innocent soul. Why am I so unlucky with love? I lost two human beings. Whenever I see a baby that me and the mum were pregnant the same year, I cry so badly. Even if I’m to suffer for it, at least I should have two people who would have encouraged me, but I had no one to myself. I’m losing it every day.
