I’m 30 years old and feel like a failure. I’m shy of telling people my age because I’m supposed to have figured something out in my life. I couldn’t get my BSc certificate, even though I passed through the walls of the university. I have had no father or mother figure in my life or relatives right from childhood. I’ve been living on my own terms, making mistakes, unlearning, and relearning. I did hookup work in between years but stopped when I got a job. Unfortunately, I lost the job, and now I’m back on the streets. I’m just trying to paint a picture of my life here, even though I’m not going into details. So, here’s the thing: I want a stable life because I’ve seen “shege” in life.
I’m tired of runs; in fact, I don’t take it seriously anymore. I just try to be able to feed and accommodate myself, at least. Right now, I’m torn between buying a job opportunity that will cost me about N250k or moving to a city where I had mad income from runs. The thing is, with the job, I could get a salary of N150k monthly, but I’m not sure how long it will last. Or, I could use the money I have now to start a plantain plantation. I’ve done the costing, and N300k should be enough to start since I’ll be renting the land. Should I just go to the town, get an apartment, and continue with runs until I save more and do something else with my life?
I’m confused because I don’t have anyone to go to for advice. I can’t even open up to people around me, as they aren’t really friends, and I don’t want someone to use my wahala and embarrass me someday. I need advice from mature minds, please. I don’t mind being criticized—just say it as it is. I want to choose the right path and do something that I’ll look back on in 2-3 years and feel proud of. If there’s something I can do with N300k right now to gather more income, I’d appreciate the advice. Thank you, and God bless.
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