Looking back, I wish I had never met her. This year was a rollercoaster, and I’m still trying to process everything. I was enjoying myself, juggling multiple relationships (not something I’m proud of). Then, I met a girl I’ll call M. Now that the veil has been lifted, I realize M was just an average girl, nothing spectacular. I think I was under a spell because I loved her like crazy. I dropped all my other relationships to focus on her, and we grew stronger. However, things started changing after a few months. She no longer initiated calls, our conversations became dull, and anytime I complained, she made me feel like I was overreacting. To make matters worse, we lived in different states, and she never visited me once. I was always the one traveling to see her. Whenever we argued and I expressed my displeasure, she would threaten to break up with me. I would end up begging her to stay, and she would eventually say it was okay.
M caused me so much emotional pain. She would body-shame me, making me feel inadequate. My mental health suffered, and I cried more than I ever had, even during difficult times. My family and friends saw the t0xic relationship and advised me to leave her, but I didn’t—until she promised to visit me last week. When I called her, she rejected my calls, and I had to text her. She finally told me she wasn’t coming. I felt disappointed, sad, and angry. I was anxious and excited about seeing her, but her cancellation was the final straw. I told her I wasn’t okay with what she did, and she simply said “okay.” That was the last conversation we had. Guys, when you see red flags, please run. I don’t h8te her, but I prioritize my peace of mind and mental health. I hope God will give her someone who can tolerate what I couldn’t. When you see red flags, run!
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