I’m a 19-year-old in 300 level with three elder sisters, and I must say my sisters are really pretty and I look up to them a lot. But the thing is, I’m totally built differently from my sisters; firstly, I am awkwardly thin compared to the way the rest of my siblings look, which I find really saddening because people tend to body shame and joke about my body, asking if I’m truly from this family because why am I thin. I faced a lot of body shaming as a teen but recently I’ve been adding quite well and I think I can pass as being pretty. But the problem is, all my life I’ve been in the shadow of my immediate elder sister. No matter what I do just to try to be like her, I end up a laughing stock. I look up to my sister and I love her a lot, but the way she just gets favored at everything while I get bare minimum is just sickening. I’m trying my best to just work on myself, work hard for all I want, but it’s just really frustrating seeing my sister get things easily from boys and all that while I can’t even boast of anything.
She just seems to get favored at everything. People usually think I’m her elder sister, which leaves me to think if I have an old face or wrinkles. I must say she’s pretty, but I’m tired of being in her shadow. My dad made it worse, especially when I wrote my WAEC and I had a good result, but it just wasn’t good enough for him and he insulted me and started saying why can’t I be more like my sister and all that. Everyone just says little things that hurt me a lot and think it’s all cool. At a time, I got over trying to be like her or thinking of how lucky she is, but recently this feeling just came back, making me feel like I am not seen enough, and people around are making matters worse, always reminding me of how she’s more pretty and better than me. I’m trying my best not to feel jealousy or hatred for her, though I’ve distanced myself so I won’t think much of it, but everyone around is not making it easy. I really love my sister but I hate being in her shadow.
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