I don’t even really know where to start right now 😔 (for context, I’m a female). Ok, so in my 100-level 2nd semester, there was this girl whom I was so fond of, and before I knew it, I already had deep feelings for her. I always flirted with her jokingly, and she always responded to my flirts, so I saw it as an opportunity. I finally got the courage to ask her out, and yeah, she rejected me because she was dating a guy, so we settled as besties. But as fate would have it, he cheated on her, and she broke up with him. To be honest, I was so happy, yet sad because I thought she’d be hurt. Turns out, it only made her harsher, and she started putting up an “I don’t care” attitude towards me. Well, I didn’t give up asking her out, and to cut the long story short, guys, she agreed, and I was the happiest person on planet Earth. I was OBSESSED with my girl, and I showed her unconditional love, but she still had her walls high up and refused to completely let me in, and that made us have issues almost always.
During this time, she met one guy on the bus on our way home, and unknowingly to me, they exchanged numbers. Well, guess what? Mr. Man started coming to our faculty to walk my girl to the gate while I walked behind them. It hurt me so much, but each time I asked, she’d always say they were just friends, and so I let it go. We went home for a certain holiday, and I made up my mind not to fight for the relationship if she didn’t want it. When we got back, I started giving off the same “I don’t care” vibes she gave me, but to my surprise, missus was obsessed with me. She let me in with her whole heart, and we even made love for the very first time at her house. It was so good, and I couldn’t get over her face and moans while we did it. Now, the card reversed, and she was the one now obsessed with me. She became so clingy, and honestly, I didn’t mind. We started making love more often, and she became so expressive with her love, even when we were outside.
She was also a very jealous lover, but I liked it, and so I was forced to open up again. I went to her house one day, and when she wasn’t in the room, I decided to go through her laptop, and I read her chat with said guy, that was just friends, and they flirted with each other throughout the holidays. I WAS HEARTBROKEN. I confronted her about it, and she didn’t deny it, and so I cried for days. She kept begging me and told me that she had blocked the guy and the only thing they did was flirt with each other. Well, that one too passed, and I changed. My love for her was bleak, and she noticed, but because I really did care for her, after some weeks, it all came back. Now, we have been seeing each other basically throughout uni, and we’re in our final year now. During my IT, I met this guy, and he made me fall desperately in love. Now, I want to break up with her, because, well, we won’t get married, and I don’t want to cheat on her, so I decided to distance myself just so she’ll be the one to fall out of love and break up with me.
But each time that happens, she’ll send me a VN or video of her seriously crying and begging me not to leave her, and that she loves me so much, and she has asthma, which can be triggered by the tears, so I don’t like to see her cry. Now, I’m at a fix and don’t know what to do. Guys, should I just continue the relationship this final lap in uni, and once we sign out, cut all ties with her, or what? Note: I haven’t given in completely to the said guy, but he said he’s willing to wait for me till whenever I’m ready, but I really don’t want to hurt this girl, because it seems like I was the one who made her fall helplessly in love, and now I still want to be the one to break her heart.
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