My girl and I have been dating for the past two years, going on three this May. For once, I haven’t cheated, and I don’t know whether she cheats or not, but let’s go with the fact that I never caught her, lol. Ever since we started dating, I have always played the role of her father—like, even if she wants to buy a pin, I’m the one paying for it. I have never complained, even when she got into school. I paid for everything. I’m an introvert; I don’t go out. I just stay at home, make money, take care of my family, and take care of her. Then I told her we should explore since I’m getting tired of her. We live together, and I don’t want to cheat, so I thought that if we tried something new (an@l s€x), I wouldn’t get tired of her anymore (guys get tired of girls if they keep having s€x with one girl—that’s why they cheat, only if you’re lying to yourself). We talked about it, and she said okay, she would do it. On our first try, it was painful, so I had to stop and comfort her. Then I did more research and found out that she could buy a butt plug to gradually get to the size of my d*ck. I told her about it, and she said I should buy it, which I did.
She used it for a few days and then stopped. I got angry and just let it be. Now we’re in school, and I’m paying for everything. Mind you, before we entered school, she already told me she would do it when we had our own space because I live with my parents (I have my own room and parlor at my parents’ house). Now we are here, and I asked her again. This girl told me to go find another person to give me that because she doesn’t want anal leakage, which I researched and found out that it only happens if you don’t go through the right process or forcefully penetrate. Mind you, she lacks nothing—nothing at all. I was even planning to change her phone next month to an iPhone 16, but I’m starting to feel like I’m the only one sacrificing here because I want to change so badly. It’s not that I can’t cheat—I just get tired of other girls. If I tell them to come over or we’re at the stage of meeting up, I’ll ghost them or stop texting. I even asked about an@l s@x with about three girls, and they all said they’re into it and never had any leakage.
These girls don’t even match my girl’s level, which might be why I don’t want to do it with them, lol. Some of you might say that because I take care of her, I think I should have the right to her body, but some of you do worse for a man who doesn’t even do half of what I do for this girl. I’m just here to say I was once a good guy, but this time, it’s just about being honest with myself. I will respect your decisions, so please respect mine. I can’t keep playing the father figure role anymore—I’ve tried. If you feel like I didn’t try, that’s fine. Thanks for your time.
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