I always loved this girl from our primary school days. In fact, I wrote a love letter in primary 6, and I knew she was cool with it because obviously, we both really liked each other them. She relocated to Ikorodu in Js3, and I couldn’t stop thinking about her. I even used to go to the house they lived in to see if she would be there just once. All my efforts to reach her on FB, etc., were in vain (I remember chatting her big bro then sef). After 5 years, she finally reached out on FB, we saw each other, the love was still there and very fresh. We had so many childhood memories, and she remembers everything, even the sill•est things (Even though we were so young, it was true and genuine love, we both felt it). We started dating in 2016, and it was like a dream come true for me. Everything was going fine until 2020 when I eventually broke up. I broke up because I wasn’t financially stable enough, and even though she doesn’t ask, I still feel less of myself for not being able to provide.
In fact, her friends told her I was st•ngy, LOL. The funny thing was her friends were secretly texting me back then. I broke up because I was insecure. So in 2020, I traveled, then later found out that she’s done intro and has a baby girl. I was so pained. I still sent the baby money, but I was in pain because I truly loved her, and we always told each other whether we end up together or not, we will still be cool friends. Every day I f!ght whether to text her and just let her know that I still love her. I am not sure if I still want her because her happiness matters more to me. My problem now is I can’t love another girl, I’ve tried so hard. Not that I haven’t found someone else, in fact, I have ladies that really want me and one that I think genuinely loves me. But my heart is still with this Dolapo. I can’t stop thinking about her, I can’t stop talking about her in every relationship I get into, amongst my friends.
Like I said, her happiness matters more to me, and I don’t want her back. But will I ever be able to love someone else? I’m trying, but the feeling is not coming. Please advise me. Should I just tell her and see if it’ll make me feel better, not because I want her back? What can I do? I am tired of being single, but I can’t love someone else even now that I have all that it takes to be in a relationship. It’s been 2 years, and I still can’t move on, she took my heart to another man’s house.
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