Where do I even begin? I don’t know how to do this but this is the only way I would say my mind for her to read because she follows this page. I’ve known her for years now, I met her through a mutual friend and loved her immediately but after exchanging contacts, she posted a video of her kissing her man so I had to back off since she was in a relationship. I check on her once in a while, sometimes she responded, sometimes she didn’t, but I didn’t care because I had met someone too. Fast forward to early last year, I noticed she entirely stopped posting anything at all, so I texted her to see if she was alright (I thought she deleted my number honestly). She said she was, but I noticed she wasn’t, so I asked if I could take her out and she agreed. We met, ate and drank. This girl is very beautiful with a very beautiful body and she smells very nice. I asked her out, she told me she would let me know. She later accepted and things were going well for a few months. Whenever I talked about settling down, she didn’t say anything and that bothered me a little, but I overlooked it.
Then sometime around August last year, I noticed she started talking to her ex but I didn’t want to think much of it because she went through a lot because of him. She was always suicidal. I spent more than N400k on her therapy and made sure she didn’t lack anything, so I didn’t believe she would go back to that kind of person. But guess what? She did. She would ignore my calls and texts, then she later told me what was happening. She even went as far as posting both of them together but I’m guessing she posted it for only me to see so that I would leave her alone. I did and checked up on her once in a while because I really love her. Any man would. She’s the bossy one when we’re out (I’m a calm shy person), she cooks amazingly, she smells great, she’s clean and her body is beautiful. Her only flaw is her stubbornness but I was cool with that because I found it adorable. So December was her birthday. I called to wish her and sent her some money for her to go out because I was out of the country for some work. I even booked an apartment for her so she could crash there with her friends after going out.
I didn’t want to be enemies because we were friends before we dated at all. Five days after her birthday was my birthday. She wished me too, got me a shirt from Ashluxe. I was very surprised because no girl has ever bought me anything. They only like to collect, so that made me ask her if we could date again. She said she was scared because she knew she hurt me but I assured her that bygone is bygone as long as it’s not repeated. She said okay. Then in January I came back to Nigeria. She had my key so she went to prepare food for me before I landed. So I met her at home and that’s how our story began again. On Valentine’s Day I got her a Van Cleef, a wig and surprised her with flowers. She wanted to take pictures with them. I paid for her photography. She got me a shoe I saved on my Instagram account to get later, which once again surprised me because I wasn’t expecting her to get anything at all. Seeing all these, I knew I’d like to make her mine forever. So I asked her if she’s ready to get married anytime soon. She said no, but we can get engaged first and have fun before marriage.
I understood since we’re both young and she said she wanted to get her life together first before marriage. I didn’t like that she said that because I give her money randomly because I know she doesn’t like to ask. I’m capable of taking care of us till the day we die, so I don’t know what she’s scared of. Anyways, I proposed to her in March. It was private, just her friend and mine and decor. She said yes, but she didn’t post it. I was surprised because girls like to flaunt it when they are engaged. She didn’t post it on any social media, even on WhatsApp. So that got me very worried and I confronted her. She said she thought she did because she streaked all her friends on Snapchat. I didn’t want to argue so I let it slide. Fast forward to April, I asked about when she’d like us to get married again. She said maybe next year. I wasn’t comfortable with the fact that there’s still a “maybe,” so we argued. I left her upstairs and went to one of the rooms downstairs to sleep, only for me to hear the door opening. She carried her things and was leaving. I had hidden one of her favorite wigs earlier that day before we argued to prank her, so I told her because I thought that might stop her. She didn’t even care. She left the wig. I thought I’d use it as an excuse to go see her later but she didn’t give me access into her estate. She told me to drop it with the estate security and blocked me everywhere. I’m suspecting she’s gone back to her ex again because she sent her engagement ring back to me. This lady made me fall in love and left me hanging. I still don’t know how to tell my family and friends that my engagement is over. Ayo, I know you’ll read this. Look what you turned me into? You could have given me a reason or even communicated with me but you’d rather be with a toxic person. All the best.
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