It’s been almost three months since she broke up with me and almost a month since I decided to stop thinking about her. I regret not letting go of the feelings earlier because I would have been much better by now. She and her family made a fool of me because I was trying to fix things. Spending five years with someone and letting go just like that is not easy. I regret not doing it earlier. Now I am beginning to realize some things that love covers. A few weeks before the breakup, she told me she was pregnant, and I was like, how come? I had really improved my pull-out game. I told her maybe her period was delayed, and she said no, she knows her body. I suggested we go for a test, but she said no, she wanted to abort it. This is coming from someone who has had more than ten ab0rtions for me, and she was saying it without remorse. Mind you, the last three she did, I was not in support of. We had to quarrel because I had a little money then and could arrange a small marriage. I told my mom, and my mom called her and asked her about it. All she could say was, if she gives birth, who will take care of her family? That has been her excuse for doing more than ten abortions at 21 years old.
This time around, I was broke, and she was seeing more money than me. I didn’t have a choice, although I was scared for her life. She told me the name of the abortion pills to get, and I went to the pharmacy, but they sold the wrong pills. I got home and found out it was the wrong pill, so she didn’t use it that day. I was to change it the next day. In the afternoon, her period finally came after almost two weeks. We didn’t have to do the abortion because she was not pregnant, just a period delay. Deep down, I was not okay. Even if you don’t love me, don’t you love yourself and your life? What if I didn’t get the wrong medicine and she took it? What would have happened? To my greatest surprise, this girl was not even bothered. Secondly, she blamed me for cheating. She cheated and said I was the cause because I was cheating too. I had to accept it then because I loved her. So dumb of me, I know. I am glad I don’t have to deal with her mom anymore. There’s no way your mom’s boyfriend, who has dated your paternal auntie, the same man who asked you out before we started dating, will be looking for a husband for you in the UK, and your mom will bring the man’s picture to show you, knowing we are still dating.
Also, seeing your mom going out with you and the same guy you cheated on me with is shameless and shows irresponsibility. As a mother, you can’t tell me you lived with a 21-year-old girl who has had more than ten abortions and you didn’t know? I started dating you when you were 17 and I was 21 and later found out you’ve had more than five exes, some of whom I had to meet as friends of friends. This also shows your mother’s irresponsibility, and there’s no way I am going to like her. You were always selfish, always putting yourself first. At a time, I couldn’t even buy clothes to wear because this girl complained about how I bought clothes for myself, the same clothes you take home and even your mom wears without complaint. Not to mention you do not have respect for anyone, not even your own mother, who sees you do wrong and can’t correct you. You also broke-shamed me because our work had issues for a while. Mocking me with my father’s death. Thank you for opting out because my childhood traumas wouldn’t have allowed me to, no matter how hard I tried. I was living in bondage.
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