Good day everyone. Since 2017, when I was in JSS 2/3, I got extreme interest in porn videos to the extent that I started masturbation, but I don’t think mine is masturbation because whenever I start watching the videos, I create a picture of a girl that I like in my brain in the sense of imagination. So while watching the video, I practiced it as if I’m having intimacy, which the moments were enjoyable for me after coming. I did that 3/4 times a day. But I don’t know if it’s what is called masturbating. If it is, then it’s affecting me spiritually because I realized that whatever I laid my hands on doesn’t prosper or move forward. I lose too much capital. I experience anxiety and depression every day and it discourages me. I think it’s masturbating. I did research about it and I saw that it affects spiritually. Many attempts have been made to stop this shit but I’m helpless. I pray it should not affect me medically. Please help me, I want to be myself. I need advice. What should I do?
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