I’m just a normal human like everyone else, but it feels like nothing ever works out for me. I’m 23, and I honestly can’t say there’s one thing in my life I can brag about. My relationship is a mess, my business is struggling, and school is not encouraging either. I started my thrift business last year. I spent time and money doing adverts, building contacts, and preparing to launch fully. Just when things were picking up, my iPhone got spoilt. I reached out to friends, family, even my boyfriend for help, but no one came through. I had to manage with an Android and I lost all my customer contacts that were saved on iCloud. Imagine having over 2,000 contacts from your advert efforts, and just like that, you’re forced to start from zero again. Even the videos I make for my business, I have to borrow a phone just to record and post them because I can’t use an Android to shoot quality videos. I tried to bounce back. I post three times a week, try different styles, but sales are so slow. I’ve only sold maybe one vintage item in the last two months. It’s draining.
What’s more frustrating is that I’m tired of posting the same available goods over and over again to the same people who already saw it and didn’t buy. Still, I keep pushing because what choice do I have? Then school. I’m in 200 level, and my CGPA is 2.90. I’ve been trying my best to push it to a 3.5 or 3.6. I really want to make myself proud, but the stress and pressure sometimes feel too heavy to carry. As for my relationships, my boyfriend has cheated multiple times. No remorse, no care, and even when I need small support, he acts like it’s too much. I don’t depend on him, but it hurts to see someone you care for not care about you at all. I’m not someone who likes to disturb people, even my family, because everyone is facing their own struggles. But sometimes I just want to break down and scream. I’m overwhelmed with everything. All I want is stability. I want my business to grow. I want to do well in school. I want to be at peace emotionally and mentally. I just want to be okay, and I pray things start working out for me soon.
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