I have a boyfriend but I’m not into him sexually because I don’t really feel him in that aspect. He has tried to make us do sexual stuff many times but it doesn’t work, I feel bad sometimes when this happens but the thing is that I can’t even force myself and I don’t feel anything when he tries to touch me. So, I met a guy who I actually liked his vibe and I was sexually attracted to him and he also found me attractive. I started talking with this guy frequently and I found out that he was the type of guy that I wanted to be intimate with (mind you, I’m still in a relationship with my boyfriend). I met with this guy a few times and on our fifth time of meeting, I cheated on my boyfriend with him. I didn’t do much with the guy because I felt guilty at some point but I really enjoyed it, not gonna lie. I somehow regretted what I did for some reason so that made me stop talking to the guy but he kept on texting me and it happened that the guy still wanted us to keep talking.
A part of me still wants to go back to the guy because the guy knows how to handle a lady in bed but at the same time I really feel bad for hurting my boyfriend. My boyfriend doesn’t know yet and I have no plans to tell him. The other guy doesn’t know that I have a boyfriend too. I really don’t know what to do at this point, I don’t like the other guy, I just see him as someone who can satisfy me in bed. As for my boyfriend, I don’t know how I feel about him and he sometimes asks me if I’m a lesbian because I don’t like him touching me. So what do you guys think??? I just need candid advice because I can’t tell anyone close to me about it because I don’t trust them. This is why I’m sharing it to see people’s opinions.