My love life changed ever since I gave birth to my daughter. I and my baby father’s relationship changed, even when he says he still loves me. Man, I look at this man and feel nothing. It’s sad because I don’t know if he loves me. He messed me up twice, I got big insecurities. But seeing some of his chats made it worse. Now, I just want to be alone without him talking to me, calling. I want him to go outside, just go and be with the girls he gives attention to. Imagine a man you’ve not been with for months, you both made love, and the man lasted longer like someone who had sex yesterday. Omo, I had to go and do a test. Please, it’s crazy how I felt making love with him would make me trigger, but it’s clear that I don’t love him anymore. Rather, I see him as my child’s father. He works in a company, but I don’t care.
I just don’t want him near me, and I don’t want to hate him either. All the pa!ns I went through during pregnancy made the love I had for him reduce. My first boyfriend was someone I felt liked me, even though that one na weyrey. I don’t like him too. My pregnancy made it look like I hate men now. Why does my baby’s father always want to talk to me? But man, I don’t want to have a thing with you anymore. Maybe I just don’t feel ready to be in a relationship with you. I wish he could just stop and talk to me only about our child. Lowkey still wants to be loved, but omo, my pregnancy trauma still haunts me. I feel like I need therapy or what do you guys think?
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