I started dating my fiancé in Oct 2020, and at first, it was a relationship without sex. Feb 12-15, 2021, I was at his place, and that was when we started having sex. Around March, I discovered I was pregnant, and that was my first pregnancy ever. I decided not to tell him because it was too early, and I was preparing to go for my youth service. I have heard a lot about being pregnant without marriage, and they also said the stress in camp will be too much. So, I decided to terminate the pregnancy knowing fully well that I was suffering from PCOS. In July 2022, he proposed to me, and I accepted. We did our introduction around September, and the marriage list was sent to him, but he insisted on getting me pregnant before proceeding with the marriage.
Rantandtalkz family, I’m depressed. I think God is angry with me. I have tried everything: pray, and go for treatment, but still, nothing to show for it. I don’t even know who to talk to about what I did to my first pregnancy. I don’t even know how to tell my fiancé that I aborted his baby without telling him. I know I was selfish, but I didn’t know it would be like this. Please house, give me Psalms to read, and please advise me if I should open up to my fiancé or just continue doing things alone and hoping for a miracle.
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