My boyfriend hates using condoms on me. I’ve ab0rted once for him, and I am not willing to get pregnant again because I don’t want to go through another ab0rtion. I prayed and begged God for forgiveness. I was depressed for three months after the ab0rtion; I felt bad, guilty, and miserable. It took me so much time to heal. Now my boyfriend is back to the same carelessness that got me pregnant the first time. He loves having unprotected sex, saying that using condoms isn’t pleasurable. I’ve begged and pleaded with him to always use protection, but he’s refusing. When he manages to put on a condom during sex, he removes it immediately, claiming it’s not sweet. The funniest part is that he uses condoms with other girls he hooks up with when I am not around (we live in different states). His condoms are always reducing each time I visit, which means he uses them on other girls.
Though he has no idea that I always count them before leaving, if he uses condoms, then why is it difficult for him to use them with me to prevent unwanted pregnancy? I want to break up with him because of this, but I love him so much. Because of this condom issue, I am always distancing myself from him and avoiding visiting him, but he’s complaining that I’m cheating on him, which is not true. I believe he loves me because he takes very good care of me and makes me happy, but I’m thinking maybe I’m wrong. Could it be that he doesn’t love me enough, which is why he h8tes using condoms on me? Why does he h8te using condoms on me? I don’t know what to do. I am confused. How do I stop him from sleeping with me unprotected without ending the relationship or starving him of sex, because he’s a sex addict and always wants to have sex with me every single time? I don’t want to lose him.
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