I’m sending this rant here because I can’t even tell anyone what is going on with me, and it is seriously stressing me out. I walk along the road and shed tears, cry myself to sleep. I’m just tired. I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for about 4-5 years. Although he has a child, which to me isn’t a problem, I love him so much and want to believe that he does too. But honestly, just love isn’t cutting it for me anymore. Before now, I used to get some support (financially) from him. I’ve never been one to really bother him much; I just manage what I have, allowance (when I was a student), and my little business. I was finally able to get a shop, and I struggled.
When I mean I struggled, I really did. All this guy could support me with in total was not even up to N500k. I just kept quiet. I looked like a shadow of myself. This is the same person who said he was going to support me. Nothing. This guy suddenly stopped sending me money, knowing fully well I am the one handling myself, and it’s not easy. I can’t ask my mum for money at this age that I am. All he keeps saying is, “Oh, things are hard, business is slow, business is slow,” that I can’t even tell him about my own issues. For other girls, their man is their safe haven because at least he can comfort her or help with some money. Since this January, he only sent me money twice. I am at my lowest now, and he knows, yet all I get are stories.
And this is someone who conveniently used to give me upkeep, and I’m not talking N100k. I know that it is not his responsibility, but what happened to at least sending me N100k or N50k as his girlfriend? If you see me now, I even avoid pictures and outings because not only do I look super stressed, I don’t even have money. How can my throwback be better than my present? Before you know it, he will ask to see me, and me foolishly will still use my small money that I’m managing to transport myself there. It’s just like I don’t have a man in my life.
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