I really don’t know if I’m overthinking things or not. A few weeks ago, I reached out to my supposed best friend that I wanted to come to her place for a few days (I really need to calm my head; I’m going through a lot). She gave me a response that she wasn’t at home and that she was going about with one of her mom’s neighbors’ burial arrangements. I asked her when she would be home, but she didn’t give me a finite response. (Note that I don’t visit her all the time, so it’s not like I’m bugging her with my visits.) She knows quite well that there’s definitely a reason for me telling her I want to come. My best friend here is someone I’ll literally go extra miles for to make sure she is okay! Back to the story of overthinking or not, I expected her to reach out to me when she later got home, but she didn’t.
She didn’t even ask me if I later found somewhere to go or not, and I didn’t take any offense because she is someone I really like. For days now, I’ve been hospitalized, and I’ve been streaking her on Snap. She is viewing the snaps but couldn’t drop a message or even call to ask what’s up with me. Now I have a lot of things running through my mind about her, like asking myself, is she really my friend? Generally, regarding friendships, I’ve been so unlucky; I don’t get half of the love I give out to people, but I was always thinking she, as my best friend, would be different. Presently, I’m just so sad and disappointed. I deserve real friends who would treat me back the way I’ve always treated them.
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