I submitted a story last year, in November, about how I finally met my spec and how he loved and took care of me the way I wanted him to. I hate to say it, but I was wrong. The ship sailed after 3 months. This guy was a narcissist, and I didn’t even realize it. PS: I mentioned he was a pastor. Not all pastors know God; they just love the respect that comes with it. This guy introduced me to taking weed. Like he even smokes weed and reads the Bible and watches preachings on YouTube. He would say it’s about the spirit and not the flesh, that God doesn’t care about the flesh. This guy would do 5 rounds of sex in a day and would request for more. I’d have to pretend I’m sick. He even begged to do Anal one time, but I didn’t agree to it. I went through his phone only to realize he had another serious girl somewhere, but I never said anything about it. He would get mad when I prayed for him. He would say he doesn’t like how I pray.
I never heard him pray once! He would say he can’t be with a woman that doesn’t pray well. He said I question his decisions, that he’s a man and I should never question his decisions. That his mother is not like that with his dad, that I don’t have respect. He said I don’t listen, and I always try to argue when he tells me to do something. I always found myself begging and apologizing to this guy for the littlest things. I was already deep into him. He said he needed space one day because I told him I’d been unhappy in the relationship. He stopped picking up my calls. He stopped calling and texting for 2 months now. Still trying to heal, but I’ve had this strong urge to enter his DM to lay strong curses on him for lying to me, for wasting my time, for making me fall for him, and for leaving me for no goddamn reason. He literally planned our perfect wedding in my head. I feel so used, and I’ve not had anyone to talk to. And it’s been so hard. But I’ll be fine.
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