I have shared my story back here in 2022, if I remember correctly, but that’s not why I’m here. I’m tired. I’m exhausted. I wish I could just disappear and have someone watch over my girl. I’m a single mum; I had my daughter when I was 22. My marriage was full of sorrow: physical, mental, and emotional abuse—you name it. I even have pictures to prove it. My girl is 4 years old, and I’m just tired. I sell jewelry, but I hardly make ends meet. My daughter lives with me because I literally have no one to leave her with. It feels like I’m not doing enough. There aren’t any sales. I just stopped working at a job where I was paid ₦15k monthly. I’m tired.
This could be the end of me. My daughter hasn’t resumed school while her mates have. I feel like I’m failing as a mum. I couldn’t keep up with my friends; they all left me. Most of them are married and rich. I’m lonely. I can’t even be in a relationship because of my mental state. I’ve cried and cried. Now I’m too tired to even cry. I look h0rrible. I owe people money because I need to feed my child. I can’t let my daughter go hungry. My mum is struggling on her own, and my siblings are at home. At this point, it’s a “carry your cross” situation. I’ve never been lucky in relationships. I graduated in 2019, and since then, life has been hell.
Even if I wanted to start a new job, I wouldn’t know how to manage with my daughter because I have nowhere to leave her. I wish my daughter could resume school like her mates. I wish I could provide for her the way other parents do. If y’all see my Instagram, you’d think I’m doing fine. I’m sick and tired of everything. Nothing is working my way. 😭 Does anyone have a stay-at-home job I can do to earn money? I’m only 26 with a 4-year-old girl. I’ve failed. I can’t even imagine going out there to sell my body. I just want to disappear.
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